Testing is Mocking God

Then they spat in His face and beat Him with their fists; and others slapped Him, and said, "Prophesy to us, You Christ; who is the one who hit You?"

Matthew 26:67-68

I think of David listening to the prophet Nathan when I read this scripture.  I read it thinking how terrible they are and what should happen to them as punishment but then I catch myself; we're no different than these.  We do the exact same thing when we test the Lord by saying, "if you grant me this wish I'll follow you" or "I've done so much for you, why aren't you granting me this desire?"  Can't you see the connection?  We're mocking Jesus on the cross by demanding He do something to prove He is the Messiah.  This is a repulsive practice that needs to stop... from each of us!

The last couple days my wife and I have been sad because we're having so much trouble trying to conceive.  It's so frustrating as I look at others having babies... that compounded with Mother's Day just happening brought back other feelings of our miscarriage.  I start thinking, "why, Lord?"  What have I done, what has my wife done, what can we do?!  Just say the word and I'll do it.  But all these questions are saying one thing clear, I don't trust the Lord with everything... how can He place a precious gift in our hands if we're not ready?  It's sad because I start comparing with others... who am I to judge others?  It goes back to just being tired and frustrated with my circumstances... I need to allow God to fill us.  I need to be satisfied and content with what God dealt us; without envy of others' blessings.  The blessings we're given in this situation are equally eternal.

Heavenly Father, please reach deep down into my heart and massage that sore spot.  Pour Your wonderful Spirit into each crevice and cavity that's thirsty for filling.  Please allow Your love to fill us up instead of things of this world which will fade away.  Thank You for this time of preparation... it will have long lasting effects for Your kingdom.  In the wonderful name of Jesus Christ I pray, amen!