Giving Up

God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them. We want each of you to show this same diligence to the very end, in order to make your hope sure. We do not want you to become lazy, but to imitate those who through faith and patience inherit what has been promised.

Hebrews 6:10-12

God is telling us never to give up because He's always there to encourage us through the tough times. He wants us to look back at what we've done together so far and be encouraged of the wonderful fruit already produced. We need to recognize that even though it doesn't seem like any progress has been made, something of eternal value had been done. We are to keep pushing through seasons of doubt and confusion. If not, we'll slow down and eventually quit because we've gotten lazy.

I'm encouraged by this but also a little confused. For the first time in weeks I'm beginning to second guess what my purpose really is. Well, maybe not my purpose but how I'm supposed to approach it. I've been confirmed on stepping down as Frontlines Director because I know God wants me to focus on other things. With this, I need to steward my small group better and allow God to work through me there. I don't know what's next but I trust God will make it clear. So why the confusion? All of a sudden I feel guilty about stepping away from NHSI leadership; like I'm giving up because things are difficult. I've come to the realization that it became difficult because I didn't make it a priority in my life and everything became tasks. I know that we will make time for the things that are important to us. This showed me that NHSI leadership wasn't my calling and was doing something I wasn't passionate about. So I don't feel like I'm giving up, I opened my eyes a little more to my design, how God created me. So I need quiet time with my Creator so that He can reveal any wrong motives and agendas.

Heavenly Father, so good You are! Forgive me of my lack of faith and vulnerability to the devil's schemes. Please send Your angels to surround my thought, allowing only You to fill it. Help Your servant stand firm upon Your Word. Yes, I stumbled bu by Your power I will stand again. Through this weakness of mine LORD, I will reveal Your strength! I love You for all You are! In Your Son's name I pray, Amen!