For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body.
Philippians 1:21-24
We all have an ultimate goal and that's to be with Christ Jesus for all eternity but we also have a journey that cannot be forgotten. Sometimes we feel like giving up; fast forwarding life to get to the finish line quicker because life's tough with all its challenges. We need to recalibrate our hearts in whatever God-given way to achieve an enduring heart that pushes through any obstacles and distractions the world throws our way. We need to be men and women who joyfully accept this journey.
I feel like giving up all the time. I always wonder if my choices were correct and how I'm living with them. Does it have to be so difficult? Can't things just be a little different? I dream about that day to be with Jesus and free of all the pain the world delivers. I think about all that the apostle Paul went through; even in prison. But he still chose to live in the body for the benefit of men & women on earth. He realigned his life back to God's calling for Him.
I wonder about my calling. I'm torn lately because I don't have any time for ministry at NHSI. I need to balance my life differently now so that my wife gets my extra time, not ministry. I'm being called on for all those things at NHSI that I just can't do. I'm not willing to place that before my wife, my family but that's what will happen if I keep this course. I don't feel like this is quitting but rather refocusing on God's calling and journey for my life. That's when I can joyfully go through life with all its trials. I don't ever remember my calling to be a worship leader or frontlines director. God has told me to disciple and mentor my brothers and sisters.
Thank You, Heavenly Father for being so patient with me. You've guided me through my confusion and never fail. I pray LORD, that You grant me the strength to see and pursue my calling without doubt and hesitation but with confidence and boldness in Christ's Spirit. Love You my wonderful Counselor! Amen!
I feel like giving up all the time. I always wonder if my choices were correct and how I'm living with them. Does it have to be so difficult? Can't things just be a little different? I dream about that day to be with Jesus and free of all the pain the world delivers. I think about all that the apostle Paul went through; even in prison. But he still chose to live in the body for the benefit of men & women on earth. He realigned his life back to God's calling for Him.
I wonder about my calling. I'm torn lately because I don't have any time for ministry at NHSI. I need to balance my life differently now so that my wife gets my extra time, not ministry. I'm being called on for all those things at NHSI that I just can't do. I'm not willing to place that before my wife, my family but that's what will happen if I keep this course. I don't feel like this is quitting but rather refocusing on God's calling and journey for my life. That's when I can joyfully go through life with all its trials. I don't ever remember my calling to be a worship leader or frontlines director. God has told me to disciple and mentor my brothers and sisters.
Thank You, Heavenly Father for being so patient with me. You've guided me through my confusion and never fail. I pray LORD, that You grant me the strength to see and pursue my calling without doubt and hesitation but with confidence and boldness in Christ's Spirit. Love You my wonderful Counselor! Amen!
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